Have you ever had one of these moments...
Last night I was holding me 8 week old little girl upright, overlooking my shoulder. I was foolishly holding her with one hand place on her bottom and lower back. She had being doing a really good job lately of holding her head up and looking around, so I thought nothing of it. We were doing great! Until she decided that she was going to force her body backwards with all her might. She did this so quickly and with so much strength I almost dropped her! Thankfully I was able to catch her before she went completely upside down. I felt a 'crack' and I immediately held her close and waited for the screaming. It took a few moments of shock before reality sunk in...then the worst sound I have ever heard in my life...she started screaming and I mean a horrific scream of pain. I was freaking out thinking I had broken her, snapped her neck, paralyzed her. I had the worst feeling deep down knowing that those screams of pain were because of me, her Mom. Seth came over and took her from me because I was an emotional wreck. How could I have let this happen, what if I would have dropped her. So many "what ifs" were flying through my head. We carefully checked her over and made sure nothing was out of place. Everything seemed fine, just a little sore. Seth comforted her (and me) and she soon fell asleep - forgetting what had happened to her only a few short moments before. She was okay. I on the other hand was still dealing with the emotion of what happened. I don't know if I will ever forget this moment. It definitely made me realize how quickly your life can change. I thank God today for our health and keeping us from a tragedy last night. I am sure this has happened to all Mom's at some point in their life in one way or another. And I know this most likely will not be last time I do something on accident that causes pain to my children. I just pray it doesn't happen again anytime in the near future. Oh, and that picture was not taken last night. =)
2 comments:
You are so not alone! When Bekah was teeny tiny we were in a waiting room, holding her, and when we were called back to see the dr, just put her in her infant seat without strapping her in. If I remember correctly, she was exactly Norah's age; two months, so we assumed she wasn't going anywhere. Well, out of nowhere her carseat just tipped forward, dumping our girl right out. Thankfully she was being carried low to the ground and did a surprisingly graceful head-over-heels roll onto the floor, but it still frightened her and shook us up horribly. I will never get that image out of my mind! We found out about a week later that her particular carseat had been recalled for that very reason. Unfortunately, that was just the first of quite a few mishaps. Three of my babies have rolled off the couch or bed (be careful!), I've trimmed a few nails too short, and I've driven on the turnpike and gotten all the way home before realizing that one of my toddlers slept soundly the whole way, but was never strapped in. (!) God protects our children; I'm so grateful for that. Thankfully He loves and cares for them way better than we do. ...Now hopefully DCF won't be knocking at my door anytime soon!
Oh girl! That must have been terrifying!!! My mom had an extremely scary story about me and a stroller and the road that you'll have to ask her about sometime....it scares me to think about - me! ;o)
Praise the Lord for His mercies!!!
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